Hurt Feelings

This morning I took Addy with me to the doctors and left the boys home alone. They were fine while I was gone, I'm sure of it! Not really, they were at home with Daddy. I thought that would be fun for them to have a morning alone with dad, but Garhett had other ideas. As soon as he saw his sister getting her socks and shoes on it meant we were all going somewhere. I kept trying to humor him by going ahead and helping with his shoes but I think that may have made things worse. I was trying to sneak out the garage without him noticing, and of course that was not happening. Garhett had his eye on me everywhere I went. I put Addy over the gate into the kitchen and followed her to the door only to get to listen to the sorrow coming from my little boy. Now that they can talk it makes leaving even harder. "No Mama!!" he is yelling out between sobs! That is a sure fire way to tug on a mother's heart strings, talk about feeling guilty. It's not as if Addy and I are going out for ice cream or to the park, we are going to the doctors office! After I start to back out of the driveway I can see Garhett and Brenden in the window watching me leave, so much for sneaking away. Poor Garhett has a bright red face and tears are still streaming down his little cheeks. Not the send off I was hoping for. I read somewhere that kiddos are sad because the person they love is leaving and it is a sign of social maturity. Well, that is all well and good, but what about the part how the mom gets to feel like crap until she is back at home, is that also a sign of social maturity? Another thing, I thought leaving the kids would have gotten easier by now seeing as how I am on numbers four and five! The greatest part though is the return home and the little men are jumping up and down and cheering for mama! It must be similar to what Oprah feels each day when her audience stands up and cheers for her. I think I am a lot like Oprah in that regard. I definitely have my very own little fan club and I wouldn't trade places with Oprah if it meant only strangers cheered for me!